sick ick ick

I have a cold. I haven't had one in ages and it is making me grumpy. Mostly because it's not a full blown cold, I just feel crummy and have a cough. Blegh...

But I have updated my resume and got my cover letter together, so tomorrow I am going to try and get myself another job! I am actually kind of excited about it. My first stop is a place a used to work at who, or so I hear, is looking for an extra staff member (particularly as school holidays are coming up). So, fingers crossed, I will be scooping ice-cream once more! Well, not until my cold is mostly gone, but I am down to just the cough, so it is on it's way out!

And I have a couple of extra shifts coming up at the book store. I love working there! I am getting trained up to do the stock receiving, which I am loving, and that means that the lady who normally does the receiving can go on holidays and I can cover for her - which would be great! The other day I had to bring in 474 copies of Mr Men and Little Miss books (6 copies of each title) - that was a nightmare. At first count I was missing 12 books, then when I checked the titles I was only missing one title, which meant I was only missing 6 books. I counted an extra two times, but I didn't know what to do if I was missing books, so I left them to be checked by the lady who normally does the receiving. Lo-and-behold there were in fact 6 books missing - I hadn't gone nuts! But I really like bringing the stock in - I get to use the pricing gun which is fun! Basically I just enjoy working there.

I still haven't found myself a project to fill my time with, but hopefully another job will help - and I can always catch up on all the good books that have been released that I haven't read.

In fact I just finished one this afternoon. It called on the Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta. It's about a girl named Taylor who doesn't really know her family history and through friends, and family she never knew she had she learns about herself and her past. It was wonderful! A couple of spots brought a tear to my eye, but it all worked out so beautifully. Everything was resolved - and not just like loose ends were tied up in the last chapter. It was really, properly resolved. It is aimed at a young adult market, but I think adults would enjoy it too.

And tonight I think I will start The Shoe Queen by Anna Davis. It's about shoes, obviously, and I got it for my mum but it looks interesting so I might give it a go. Well, I will read that after House MD and Medium. Yes, I am a fan of Dr Gregory House and Mrs Alison DuBois. Actually, I think Wednesday night is the only night my whole family agrees about what we should watch on television. Oh, wait, I take that back. Sunday is also a day we agree - Grey's Anatomy. But only those two, the other nights there are differences of opinion, so it's a good thing we have more than one tv! Yep, I'm off to watch House MD - I wonder what he will get up to tonight...

am I back?

I think I am. Back, I mean. I disappeared for a while there, didn't I?

Well, a lot has happened since I last blogged in April of '06. I finished first year of my course with an average grade of a Distinction, and then took a leave of absence. Yep, lots of people have found this odd - except me. See, when I chose to do my course it probably wasn't for best reasons, mainly that other people thought I would enjoy it, and I didn't know what else to do. So here we are now, and I'm out in the workforce. I am happier. But I am feeling a bit lost at the moment. Now I don't know what I want to do, and I only have a part time job so I have a whole lot of time to basically be a home-body. Which, I suppose inevitably, has begun to make me feel a little depressed. I basically look after the house for my family - I clean, I cook, and I'm boring...

I really need a focus. In fact, I'm a bit desperate for a focus. A project. But I can't sow. I can't paint. I spent all of last year taking photos, which made me miserable. I just don't know what to do. Even writing this is making me feel crummy.

I have to come up with something to do for this year - I really can't keep going the way I have been. I am going to visit a shop I used to work at tomorrow to see if they need any extra staff members, to at least use up some more time. And lots of people have suggested that I work hard to save some money and go travelling. I'm a bit chicken though - I'm scared to go somewhere on my own. Yes, I'm not particularly brave. So maybe going somewhere on my own would be hugely beneficial. I've certainly heard stories about travelling changing your life. In fact, a great Aunt of mine was telling me the other day how the six months her daughter spent abroad was the best thing that could have happened to her - it changed her, and made her more independent, and stronger. So that is definitely something I should look into properly.

I really do just want something to fill up my days, so I don't sit around the house - that makes me miserable.

Gosh, hasn't this post turned into something pathetic. In truth, life isn't that bad. I have really been enjoying cooking different recipes, and having time to relax, and work at my favourite job ever - the book store. I have been reading lots. And in all honesty I really enjoy doing clothes washing - it's fun! I just don't like the way I seem to other people... maybe that's the problem, not me... Oh, who the hell knows. I'll just keep on keeping on and see what comes out of following some options. I am only 19, after all.