Last time I posted I had decided I wanted to study teaching, well I have just finished applying! I have applied for both Deakin and Melbourne Uni, but I have put Deakin as number one. Basically because it will save money, and because I actually don't like being on the Melb Uni campus. I went there for Open Day, and I walked around for a little while and just walking around I realised that I don't feel comfortable on the campus - I just don't... I can't even really put my finger on the reason, but I just don't feel right. Oh well, Deakin will be good. I will still be at home, and still have my jobs. It will help me save money, because I have also decided/realised that I want to travel. So I was thinking that if everything goes 'to plan' after I graduate from uni I will travel around the world for a little while. I really want to! And I've never really thought about travelling before, but I just do!! I very excited!
In other news, I got my new laptop about 2 weeks ago! It's a gorgeous brown Dell. I must say I have had a few issues with Vista, but not too many. It was a bit silly with an external harddrive. But otherwise it is wonderful!! I finally put all my data from my old computer onto it last night, and so now it is my one and only computer! Excellent!
And also I have started driving again. I hadn't been driving in ages, then mum told me how she and John would be going to New Zealand in November, and then Perth in December so if I didn't have my licence I basically wouldn't be able to get anywhere... And plus, there will be a car to use over that time. So I went driving on Saturday, and I will go again during the week. I am a bit more determined now than I was before, and I think if I try really hard I can have my licence sooner rather than later. So that's awesome too...
3.9.07
22.6.07
decision making is a bitch...
So, it's been ages since I posted... But honestly I have nothing much to post about. All I have really been doing is working. And working. And working. Which is good, it's what I want to be doing, but it's not particularly fun to write about.
However, a more interesting thing that has been happening is my attempting to decide what I want to do with my future. Yes, the big question of a career. I have recently decided that I really want to study teaching - decision number one has been made. I have absolutely adored being in the classroom and helping to educate these little minds. Teaching, in my opinion, is one of the most important jobs. Which, as I've been thinking about it, has scared me something dreadful. To think that you have such a huge part in making these people who they are. I know that my personality and the person I am today was shaped by, yes, my family, but also my teachers. Mrs Aikman in prep was incredibly and gave me confidence in being at school. Mr Payne was excellent in grade 6 to push me into doing things I was chicken about - ie. bike ed. Ms Hanna was hugely important in year 7 for helping me get used to high school. And then Ms Miller really enforced my love of media. I remember Ms Boldys in grade 4 letting me help with decorating the classroom. They all helped me in such huge ways. And to think I could, maybe one day, be that important to a little persons life - it's huge!! But, then I remind myself that I have four years of studying before I get out into the classroom as a proper teacher, and I'm pretty sure that at 24 years old I will be much better able to deal with the huge implication of being a teacher. But, I'm now sure, I want to be a teacher.
Actually that is probably one of the first times I have said it with such certainty. I normally say "I'm pretty sure", or "I think I want to" - so writing that is really awesome!
The next decision is the one regarding which university I would like to be at. It basically comes down to Deakin Uni or Melbourne Uni. And, of course, there are pros and cons... Getting into Deakin would mean living at home, having two jobs already (who have both told me they would keep me on) and being at a campus I know. Getting into Melbourne would mean moving out of home, finding a new job, and being at a new campus. Now, normally I would immediately gravitate towards Deakin - it's comfortable, I know where I would be, how I would get there, and that I would have all my family support system around. But... And this is the unusual thing for me... I am finding the prospect of living at home for another 4 years rather depressing. And I get really excited about the prospect of moving out into the big wide world. If I was to move to Melbourne, I would live with Megs (we have already discussed this prospect at great lengths). And we would have an absolute ball!! We have actually discussed decor for our house already!
So... Melbourne would be brilliant, and I think that is where I'd like to be. But I have to remember that they might not want me, and if I get my hopes up too much, I could be very sorely disappointed. Oh well, I'm sure I will have fun wherever I am! I hope...
However, a more interesting thing that has been happening is my attempting to decide what I want to do with my future. Yes, the big question of a career. I have recently decided that I really want to study teaching - decision number one has been made. I have absolutely adored being in the classroom and helping to educate these little minds. Teaching, in my opinion, is one of the most important jobs. Which, as I've been thinking about it, has scared me something dreadful. To think that you have such a huge part in making these people who they are. I know that my personality and the person I am today was shaped by, yes, my family, but also my teachers. Mrs Aikman in prep was incredibly and gave me confidence in being at school. Mr Payne was excellent in grade 6 to push me into doing things I was chicken about - ie. bike ed. Ms Hanna was hugely important in year 7 for helping me get used to high school. And then Ms Miller really enforced my love of media. I remember Ms Boldys in grade 4 letting me help with decorating the classroom. They all helped me in such huge ways. And to think I could, maybe one day, be that important to a little persons life - it's huge!! But, then I remind myself that I have four years of studying before I get out into the classroom as a proper teacher, and I'm pretty sure that at 24 years old I will be much better able to deal with the huge implication of being a teacher. But, I'm now sure, I want to be a teacher.
Actually that is probably one of the first times I have said it with such certainty. I normally say "I'm pretty sure", or "I think I want to" - so writing that is really awesome!
The next decision is the one regarding which university I would like to be at. It basically comes down to Deakin Uni or Melbourne Uni. And, of course, there are pros and cons... Getting into Deakin would mean living at home, having two jobs already (who have both told me they would keep me on) and being at a campus I know. Getting into Melbourne would mean moving out of home, finding a new job, and being at a new campus. Now, normally I would immediately gravitate towards Deakin - it's comfortable, I know where I would be, how I would get there, and that I would have all my family support system around. But... And this is the unusual thing for me... I am finding the prospect of living at home for another 4 years rather depressing. And I get really excited about the prospect of moving out into the big wide world. If I was to move to Melbourne, I would live with Megs (we have already discussed this prospect at great lengths). And we would have an absolute ball!! We have actually discussed decor for our house already!
So... Melbourne would be brilliant, and I think that is where I'd like to be. But I have to remember that they might not want me, and if I get my hopes up too much, I could be very sorely disappointed. Oh well, I'm sure I will have fun wherever I am! I hope...
25.4.07
don't know Winnie?!
Hmm... I have done some really exciting things recently. Well, exciting may not be the best descriptor, they have certainly been fun though! I started volunteer work at a primary school. It was such fun the Friday I started! I am helping out in a grade 1 and 2 composite class. Some of the kids had drawn pictures of what they thought I would look like, and some had written, and decorated, my name. Then they stuck them to the door as a welcome - it was so gorgeous!! They are some of the sweetest kids I have ever met. At the start of the day I got welcomed into the class with a Q&A (1. What is my favourite colour? 2. What is my favourite animal? 3. What is my favourite food? 4. Do I like makeup? Orange, cats, pizza and sometimes) and a performance (they learn Italian so they did a song in Italian with hand actions!). I helped out with a spelling test (yes, back to putting words in sentences: "The grass is green" - it was Gr words this week). I got to play Celebrity Heads (they didn't know who Winnie the Pooh was...) and was taught to play Yahtzee by a 7-year-old! All in all it was an excellent day. And I am now totally and seriously considering studying Primary Education at University. I'm thinking either Deakin University or Melbourne University (and at Melb I would be the last year of intake because of the Melbourne Model). So yes, I think I may be on my way to knowing what "career" I would like.
And it was the Apollo Bay Music Festival last weekend. It was so much fun! I was only there for Saturday and Sunday, I was at the primary school on Friday, then worked Friday evening, so I didn't get down 'til Saturday - and then I was really worn out from the day before... But it was great fun. The highlights were: Cornerstone Roots (great reggae/roots), De Jah Groove (very cool to dance to) and Sweethearts (the band from the high school I went to, they probably performed the best I have ever seen them). Yep, a brilliant, but very tiring, weekend!
And today is ANZAC Day. So: lest we forget.
And, I just realised, I let my last post - my 100th post - go by with no celebrations. So I just wanted to mention it. This is officially post number 101! Wow!
And it was the Apollo Bay Music Festival last weekend. It was so much fun! I was only there for Saturday and Sunday, I was at the primary school on Friday, then worked Friday evening, so I didn't get down 'til Saturday - and then I was really worn out from the day before... But it was great fun. The highlights were: Cornerstone Roots (great reggae/roots), De Jah Groove (very cool to dance to) and Sweethearts (the band from the high school I went to, they probably performed the best I have ever seen them). Yep, a brilliant, but very tiring, weekend!
And today is ANZAC Day. So: lest we forget.
And, I just realised, I let my last post - my 100th post - go by with no celebrations. So I just wanted to mention it. This is officially post number 101! Wow!
13.4.07
sun and washing...
It's the second month of Autumn and there is still plenty of warm, lovely sunshine to dry my washing on the clothesline! And beautiful blue skies.
9.4.07
eBay and chocolate
Well, Happy Easter to one and all! I got some wonderful chocolate which of course I have eaten too much of but it was so delicious. The best was these little square chocolates which were hot cross bun flavoured! They were awesome.
I also took advantage of this long weekend to get some things up on eBay. Gosh, that was fun! I currently have 38 items up... First some didn't show up, and now I am into the excitement of having bids! Who knew watching people spend money could be such fun! Oh, and seeing how many watchers you have on your items, that's just a blast. I think one of the items has 10 watchers! I can see it being addictive, which is a worry. Actually, a couple of friends have been using it as a side business. They go op shopping and sell what they find, which is pretty cool. Maybe that's something I should think about seeing I have quite a bit of spare time...
And working at the icecream shop is awesome. I just really like having something to do, and have a good laugh doing it. So, yeah, I'm really happy at the moment. I love the way things are going. And I am getting a little excited about the prospect of a holiday in summer. There has been consideration of New Zealand - awesome!!
I also took advantage of this long weekend to get some things up on eBay. Gosh, that was fun! I currently have 38 items up... First some didn't show up, and now I am into the excitement of having bids! Who knew watching people spend money could be such fun! Oh, and seeing how many watchers you have on your items, that's just a blast. I think one of the items has 10 watchers! I can see it being addictive, which is a worry. Actually, a couple of friends have been using it as a side business. They go op shopping and sell what they find, which is pretty cool. Maybe that's something I should think about seeing I have quite a bit of spare time...
And working at the icecream shop is awesome. I just really like having something to do, and have a good laugh doing it. So, yeah, I'm really happy at the moment. I love the way things are going. And I am getting a little excited about the prospect of a holiday in summer. There has been consideration of New Zealand - awesome!!
28.3.07
sick ick ick
I have a cold. I haven't had one in ages and it is making me grumpy. Mostly because it's not a full blown cold, I just feel crummy and have a cough. Blegh...
But I have updated my resume and got my cover letter together, so tomorrow I am going to try and get myself another job! I am actually kind of excited about it. My first stop is a place a used to work at who, or so I hear, is looking for an extra staff member (particularly as school holidays are coming up). So, fingers crossed, I will be scooping ice-cream once more! Well, not until my cold is mostly gone, but I am down to just the cough, so it is on it's way out!
And I have a couple of extra shifts coming up at the book store. I love working there! I am getting trained up to do the stock receiving, which I am loving, and that means that the lady who normally does the receiving can go on holidays and I can cover for her - which would be great! The other day I had to bring in 474 copies of Mr Men and Little Miss books (6 copies of each title) - that was a nightmare. At first count I was missing 12 books, then when I checked the titles I was only missing one title, which meant I was only missing 6 books. I counted an extra two times, but I didn't know what to do if I was missing books, so I left them to be checked by the lady who normally does the receiving. Lo-and-behold there were in fact 6 books missing - I hadn't gone nuts! But I really like bringing the stock in - I get to use the pricing gun which is fun! Basically I just enjoy working there.
I still haven't found myself a project to fill my time with, but hopefully another job will help - and I can always catch up on all the good books that have been released that I haven't read.
In fact I just finished one this afternoon. It called on the Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta. It's about a girl named Taylor who doesn't really know her family history and through friends, and family she never knew she had she learns about herself and her past. It was wonderful! A couple of spots brought a tear to my eye, but it all worked out so beautifully. Everything was resolved - and not just like loose ends were tied up in the last chapter. It was really, properly resolved. It is aimed at a young adult market, but I think adults would enjoy it too.
And tonight I think I will start The Shoe Queen by Anna Davis. It's about shoes, obviously, and I got it for my mum but it looks interesting so I might give it a go. Well, I will read that after House MD and Medium. Yes, I am a fan of Dr Gregory House and Mrs Alison DuBois. Actually, I think Wednesday night is the only night my whole family agrees about what we should watch on television. Oh, wait, I take that back. Sunday is also a day we agree - Grey's Anatomy. But only those two, the other nights there are differences of opinion, so it's a good thing we have more than one tv! Yep, I'm off to watch House MD - I wonder what he will get up to tonight...
But I have updated my resume and got my cover letter together, so tomorrow I am going to try and get myself another job! I am actually kind of excited about it. My first stop is a place a used to work at who, or so I hear, is looking for an extra staff member (particularly as school holidays are coming up). So, fingers crossed, I will be scooping ice-cream once more! Well, not until my cold is mostly gone, but I am down to just the cough, so it is on it's way out!
And I have a couple of extra shifts coming up at the book store. I love working there! I am getting trained up to do the stock receiving, which I am loving, and that means that the lady who normally does the receiving can go on holidays and I can cover for her - which would be great! The other day I had to bring in 474 copies of Mr Men and Little Miss books (6 copies of each title) - that was a nightmare. At first count I was missing 12 books, then when I checked the titles I was only missing one title, which meant I was only missing 6 books. I counted an extra two times, but I didn't know what to do if I was missing books, so I left them to be checked by the lady who normally does the receiving. Lo-and-behold there were in fact 6 books missing - I hadn't gone nuts! But I really like bringing the stock in - I get to use the pricing gun which is fun! Basically I just enjoy working there.
I still haven't found myself a project to fill my time with, but hopefully another job will help - and I can always catch up on all the good books that have been released that I haven't read.
In fact I just finished one this afternoon. It called on the Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta. It's about a girl named Taylor who doesn't really know her family history and through friends, and family she never knew she had she learns about herself and her past. It was wonderful! A couple of spots brought a tear to my eye, but it all worked out so beautifully. Everything was resolved - and not just like loose ends were tied up in the last chapter. It was really, properly resolved. It is aimed at a young adult market, but I think adults would enjoy it too.
And tonight I think I will start The Shoe Queen by Anna Davis. It's about shoes, obviously, and I got it for my mum but it looks interesting so I might give it a go. Well, I will read that after House MD and Medium. Yes, I am a fan of Dr Gregory House and Mrs Alison DuBois. Actually, I think Wednesday night is the only night my whole family agrees about what we should watch on television. Oh, wait, I take that back. Sunday is also a day we agree - Grey's Anatomy. But only those two, the other nights there are differences of opinion, so it's a good thing we have more than one tv! Yep, I'm off to watch House MD - I wonder what he will get up to tonight...
26.3.07
am I back?
I think I am. Back, I mean. I disappeared for a while there, didn't I?
Well, a lot has happened since I last blogged in April of '06. I finished first year of my course with an average grade of a Distinction, and then took a leave of absence. Yep, lots of people have found this odd - except me. See, when I chose to do my course it probably wasn't for best reasons, mainly that other people thought I would enjoy it, and I didn't know what else to do. So here we are now, and I'm out in the workforce. I am happier. But I am feeling a bit lost at the moment. Now I don't know what I want to do, and I only have a part time job so I have a whole lot of time to basically be a home-body. Which, I suppose inevitably, has begun to make me feel a little depressed. I basically look after the house for my family - I clean, I cook, and I'm boring...
I really need a focus. In fact, I'm a bit desperate for a focus. A project. But I can't sow. I can't paint. I spent all of last year taking photos, which made me miserable. I just don't know what to do. Even writing this is making me feel crummy.
I have to come up with something to do for this year - I really can't keep going the way I have been. I am going to visit a shop I used to work at tomorrow to see if they need any extra staff members, to at least use up some more time. And lots of people have suggested that I work hard to save some money and go travelling. I'm a bit chicken though - I'm scared to go somewhere on my own. Yes, I'm not particularly brave. So maybe going somewhere on my own would be hugely beneficial. I've certainly heard stories about travelling changing your life. In fact, a great Aunt of mine was telling me the other day how the six months her daughter spent abroad was the best thing that could have happened to her - it changed her, and made her more independent, and stronger. So that is definitely something I should look into properly.
I really do just want something to fill up my days, so I don't sit around the house - that makes me miserable.
Gosh, hasn't this post turned into something pathetic. In truth, life isn't that bad. I have really been enjoying cooking different recipes, and having time to relax, and work at my favourite job ever - the book store. I have been reading lots. And in all honesty I really enjoy doing clothes washing - it's fun! I just don't like the way I seem to other people... maybe that's the problem, not me... Oh, who the hell knows. I'll just keep on keeping on and see what comes out of following some options. I am only 19, after all.
Well, a lot has happened since I last blogged in April of '06. I finished first year of my course with an average grade of a Distinction, and then took a leave of absence. Yep, lots of people have found this odd - except me. See, when I chose to do my course it probably wasn't for best reasons, mainly that other people thought I would enjoy it, and I didn't know what else to do. So here we are now, and I'm out in the workforce. I am happier. But I am feeling a bit lost at the moment. Now I don't know what I want to do, and I only have a part time job so I have a whole lot of time to basically be a home-body. Which, I suppose inevitably, has begun to make me feel a little depressed. I basically look after the house for my family - I clean, I cook, and I'm boring...
I really need a focus. In fact, I'm a bit desperate for a focus. A project. But I can't sow. I can't paint. I spent all of last year taking photos, which made me miserable. I just don't know what to do. Even writing this is making me feel crummy.
I have to come up with something to do for this year - I really can't keep going the way I have been. I am going to visit a shop I used to work at tomorrow to see if they need any extra staff members, to at least use up some more time. And lots of people have suggested that I work hard to save some money and go travelling. I'm a bit chicken though - I'm scared to go somewhere on my own. Yes, I'm not particularly brave. So maybe going somewhere on my own would be hugely beneficial. I've certainly heard stories about travelling changing your life. In fact, a great Aunt of mine was telling me the other day how the six months her daughter spent abroad was the best thing that could have happened to her - it changed her, and made her more independent, and stronger. So that is definitely something I should look into properly.
I really do just want something to fill up my days, so I don't sit around the house - that makes me miserable.
Gosh, hasn't this post turned into something pathetic. In truth, life isn't that bad. I have really been enjoying cooking different recipes, and having time to relax, and work at my favourite job ever - the book store. I have been reading lots. And in all honesty I really enjoy doing clothes washing - it's fun! I just don't like the way I seem to other people... maybe that's the problem, not me... Oh, who the hell knows. I'll just keep on keeping on and see what comes out of following some options. I am only 19, after all.
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