inadequacy...

I feel so utterly pointless and inadequate at the moment. Sure, my school marks are good, but that's because I can give the teachers what they and fulfil the criteria, not because I really have something to say or because I am interesting or creative. So many people around me do everything better, and I am so jealous. Maybe I shouldn't be, but I can't help it... I just am! They write better, photograph better, spell better, type better, create better, talk better, live better, express themselves better. I just tend to go with the flow and not pick things apart... I do what I have to, think the minimum amount and get by - I'm not deep, I'm not interesting, I'm just me - inadequate as I am...